[ udon, okay. udon. archie was just joking, but odin sits up on his knees very seriously, mouths the word udon, grins, then flops back onto the mattress, still face down. looks like, uh. looks like he's got that plan ironed out. niko's gonna get some udon.
but then he's quiet for a little while, and when he speaks again, his voice is pretty small. ]
I hope I do. [ he shrugs into the mattress, rolling over to face Archie again. ] I think acting like a fool and lying about the kind of man I am does more harm than good, but part of why I do it is so I can bring a whirlwind of energy into people's lives. Getting them thinking about adventures and cool heroes and badass stuff like that. But it's definitely an excuse for me to say whatever wild shit I want to say without worrying about the repercussions until they're hitting me in the face, so that's no good. But. Again. Still sort of a coward. Not gonna stop any time soon.
[ he frowns, examining archie's face like he's searching for something. he wished he knew why the poor guy had nightmares, or why he said he'd made his own fair share of mistakes in the past, but odin wasn't going to ask. not tonight, at least. ]
You know you make people happy, too, right? You're such a warm and loving person. I wish I knew how to express to you just how much I appreciate the time we've spent together, however short it may have been before today. I know I've only known you for a few weeks, but you've shown a level of respect and trust for me that I haven't received from many people in my life - at least people who weren't obligated to provide those feelings for me in some way. Kinda overwhelms me how amazing it was that you came over to talk to me like this, which... I don't know. Is that too much to say? I'm definitely reading into a pretty normal act of friendship and assigning a lot of weight and pressure to an innocent decision you made and I really shouldn't do that. I'm definitely talking too much and being pretty being a bit of a clingy messy weight again. I don't mean to be like that. That's not what I'm trying to do. I hope I'm not, like. Pressuring you to... be. Friend. At me. With this. That's not. [ HE'S BROKEN AGAIN HIS STUPID INSECURE MIND IS FUCKING UP AGAIN CTRL ALT DEL CTRL ALT DEL FORCE RESTART ]
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but then he's quiet for a little while, and when he speaks again, his voice is pretty small. ]
I hope I do. [ he shrugs into the mattress, rolling over to face Archie again. ] I think acting like a fool and lying about the kind of man I am does more harm than good, but part of why I do it is so I can bring a whirlwind of energy into people's lives. Getting them thinking about adventures and cool heroes and badass stuff like that. But it's definitely an excuse for me to say whatever wild shit I want to say without worrying about the repercussions until they're hitting me in the face, so that's no good. But. Again. Still sort of a coward. Not gonna stop any time soon.
[ he frowns, examining archie's face like he's searching for something. he wished he knew why the poor guy had nightmares, or why he said he'd made his own fair share of mistakes in the past, but odin wasn't going to ask. not tonight, at least. ]
You know you make people happy, too, right? You're such a warm and loving person. I wish I knew how to express to you just how much I appreciate the time we've spent together, however short it may have been before today. I know I've only known you for a few weeks, but you've shown a level of respect and trust for me that I haven't received from many people in my life - at least people who weren't obligated to provide those feelings for me in some way. Kinda overwhelms me how amazing it was that you came over to talk to me like this, which... I don't know. Is that too much to say? I'm definitely reading into a pretty normal act of friendship and assigning a lot of weight and pressure to an innocent decision you made and I really shouldn't do that. I'm definitely talking too much and being pretty being a bit of a clingy messy weight again. I don't mean to be like that. That's not what I'm trying to do. I hope I'm not, like. Pressuring you to... be. Friend. At me. With this. That's not. [ HE'S BROKEN AGAIN HIS STUPID INSECURE MIND IS FUCKING UP AGAIN CTRL ALT DEL CTRL ALT DEL FORCE RESTART ]