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[h2no]

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[taraincognita]

...Then I really--should just stop talking to him, right?

[ she fidgets a little, staring back into mightyena's fur. ]

...I'm a bad person, I think.

[h2no]

I'd think you were a bad person if you were enjoying this, but you're clearly not. Even if you keep doing it, sometimes we get backed into a corner and lash out in ways that only hurt ourselves and everyone around us.

The way you can make this better is that now you know you're doing it, move on and tell him what you think he should know. Without lying or denying anything.

[taraincognita]

What do I even say to him?

Haha, sorry, I lied, I'm that terrible girl who betrayed you to your worst enemy? It's not you, it's me? The benefits were good? I--I know I fucked up, and now I have to live with it, and--fuck.

[ besides, she did enjoy it. or, at least, she thinks she did. power, and control, those are both things that are fun--and the titans had hurt her, first. ]

I was just...stupid. So, so stupid.

[h2no]

Telling him you know you did wrong and regret it is a good start.

[he taps his chin.]

Ya gotta see how he feels, too. Play it by ear.

[taraincognita]

I really--fucked up. I freaked out at him, after, and...

I dunno.

[h2no]

Don't talk yourself out of it. This is something you have to do. Sometimes we have to do shitty things we know that're only going to blow back on us but... they're unavoidable.

[he really doesn't want to give back the sub]

[taraincognita]

Maybe, I'll talk to Jaime, too, or something.

[ that's what the cool kids call procrastination. ]

[h2no]

Because you think he'll tell you what you want to hear?

[taraincognita]

...No, not really. He'll say the same kinda shit you're sayin'.

[h2no]

Then what's the point? Puttin' it off?

[taraincognita]

[ yup. that is exactly the point. ]

...I just--Archie, I--

Fuck, it's just. Even if he forgives me for this, he's still gonna wanna ask me stuff for--you know, back whenever, and I don't want to talk about--that, and what I did, and--

I can't.

[h2no]

Well, remember. You owe him the truth an' nothing else. If he tries to push you into a relationship you don't want or aren't comfortable with, that's on him.

[taraincognita]

Which...truth do I even owe him? About what? There's--so much...

[h2no]

Who you are, maybe what your situation is in regards to him.