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After spouting some real bullshit about clones, let me tell you. Gives me this whole spiel about Jedi being dehumanised and then talks about 622 as if he has less will than a droid with a restraining bolt.
Like I fucking get it, but the guy can lift a car with his mind, he can put up with two imperials who were there out of choice and on a truce for a few god damn hours in the name of that truce.
He's a person, Archie, and I get so fucking mad when he gets treated as less of one, and I don't care if that comes from the Empire or the Jedi, neither of them should be doing it.
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No-- I get you. No-one should dehumanise anyone. [that's a very basic take away from this... he has a lot of questions stil..] Uhm-- I guess if that's how he felt then it's better he walked out? Rather than start a fight about who gets dehumanised more.
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Yeah.
Though honestly it felt more like he walked out to make a point rather than to actually avoid a fight - they weren't going to start anything. Even if they wanted to, they were in a party full of Rebels.
But it's - If it was just Kanan - but I'm pretty sure Bodhi is super unhappy with me, too, and that just hurts... There was a reason I kind of kept on the downlow about hanging out with 622, but I didn't want to lie about it, so I didn't--
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W...wait, no, you lost me. Why does Bodhi not like him?
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It's not a personal thing - I don't think - but completely opposite sides of a war and they were fighting right at the same time. So I mean, I get it, I honestly do, and I feel like shit for putting him through it, but I honestly -
Archie, people might be on sides but that doesn't mean they are them. Bodhi and Finn were both defectors. And sure, 622 isn't exactly - going to defect any time soon - but he's a hell of a lot closer to it than when he first got here. He knows who I am and still wants to - I just don't think drawing a hard line there is actually helpful.
Not here.
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[he huffs out a light sigh. leans forward to rest his chin on his fist.]
It's a shame what happened did but it was far better than them responding to each other if they had met on a battlefield, right?
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[His face falls and he looks away from the camera. ]
... They all already died for it. I want to make sure that they get to have good lives, here. All of them. It's not like any of them are Hux or Kylo Ren - they aren't monsters, they just -
Wore different uniforms.
And there's a difference. I think.
[ He sighs and looks back to the camera. ]
... Yeah. You're probably right, I just think I -
I don't know, Arch.
[ He pauses, hesitates, and then continues: ]
Bodhi seems to think that this whole thing with 622 is just - me wanting to find Finn in someone else.
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[he doesn't want to say it, but maybe poe, desperately clinging onto his happiness, forgot that not everyone has the history or love behind them to feel the same way.
that next thing-- whoof.] ... Are you?
[he knows poe will likely deny it, but wants to hear his own answer to that.]
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[ He looked uncomfortable. He hadn't added 'and then torture me' to either of those names, but he could have. ]
I know. I know? I shouldn't have brought them. I just - [ The discomfort turned to clear misery. ]
... I know. Trying not to think about what my parents would have looked like if they were there.
I just - I want this to work, and I want everyone to be safe, and I thought maybe I could illustrate that they really don't need to be enemies...
[ He trailed off, frowned, and kicked at something on the floor, looking down. ]
... I don't know. I don't know how I could know whether I am or not. I don't think I am, but if I did think that, I wouldn't be doing it, right?
I know they aren't the same.
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[he says it honestly-- he doesn't want to get further into this vastly intimidating concept than he already is, especially so blind.]
At least you got that level of self awareness-- it's something. [he frowns.] What you did came from a place of goodwill. It's not like you put them together to watch the suffering for your amusement. Making a mistake is far less worse than purposeful maliciousness.
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I just wanted all the people I cared about in the same place.
That's all.
And I hate that it's a mistake to want that.
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[he feels terrible for poe; can't quite imagine how the meal must've gone after that. poor guy... he already has so much on his shoulders without more self-inflicted guilt.]
Maybe one day it won't be.
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[ He muttered it lowly, his expression as twisted as his chest felt. ]
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[he agrees without hesitation, his own expression carefully neutral.]
But what's there to do if you don't live like maybe you might?
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[ He raised his eyes up to the camera. ] Live like you have to make the most of every damn moment.
I don't know how to do this, Arch - I don't know how to balance this. He's not a threat to them - at all - and if he was they should know that I'd be the first to take him down. No hesitations. But nothing else has actually made me feel this okay with being here in a long time.
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[he doesn't really know how to do either-- he suspects poe doesn't either. likely most imPorts don't.]
...I don't think reassuring them that you'd be the first in line to pull the trigger will help much. [because jesus christ just casually dropping that in, thinking that if something happened poe would have to murder 622 actively makes him feel a bit sick.] Does it have to be you? If no-one is actively seeking the other out to continue that war, does it... have to happen?
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But I don't think it will. Whatever Kanan seems to think.
[ He scrubbed his face. ]
He's not going to hurt anyone. So I won't have to.
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Being so insistent on it... sounds a bit like you are expecting something...
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Kanan just - got into my damn head about it. That's all.
[ The clones did turn around and kill all the Jedi, after all. But he wasn't about to say that. ]
Sorry. I'm just on edge.
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It's alright. It sounds like it's been a hellish few days. Do you want to come over? Maybe this would be easier if we spoke in person.
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[ He sighed. ]
I just.
I know I shouldn't like him, Arch, but I do. And I don't think it is about anything else. I don't want to think about how I'm disappointing or upsetting people just because I...
[ He trailed off, miserably. A very dark thought struck him suddenly: maybe he wouldn't care so much about what everyone else felt about it if he was dead back home, too. If he'd served his time and done his duty.
His stomach twisted. ]
A drink, maybe.
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[he shakes his head.]
Drinking won't help. It'll just make you feel worse. You know alcohol is a depressant? Like, it's not just a coincidence that getting drunk makes you feel shitty. It's literally in the chemical makeup.
[it takes him a moment to respond to the next part-- he's not really sure how to.]
I don't know if you shouldn't. Frankly there is some degree to which how they feel about it just straight up doesn't matter. You're a grown ass man and you can make your own choices, even if other people think they're the wrong ones.
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Yeah, but what if it is the wrong one. [ His voice got quieter. ] What if everyone else is right and it's destined to just - spectacularly fail.
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That's... just life, y'know? No-one can ever know if a choice they're making is the right one in advance. Maybe you're right and everyone else is wrong.
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Yeah.
Sorry.
Life was a lot less complicated back home.
Protect civilians, shoot bad guys, go home.
[ He frowned. ]
Just having a really hard time finding arguments that 622 should fall into the 'bad guy' category particularly convincing.
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